Category Archives: fear

Agony written by a country churchyard

In a bid to say farewell to some of the places I’ve habitually cycled through, on Friday I took a roundabout route to Leafield, a quiet, hilltop village. It was all I could do to get out of my funk, … Continue reading

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Why haven’t we left yet?

Our life has narrowed down to a very thin set of priorities now, as we try to wrangle a move prior to October with a desperate earnestness that no other party involved seems to share. Everything you think will take … Continue reading

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Like Ma Bell, I got an ill deceleration

I’m sat here planning a journey again: tomorrow, heading up north, 150 miles there, 150 back. I’m sat here feeling ill again: a cold, traceable to a client meeting I didn’t want or need to go to. Sometimes it feels … Continue reading

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Youth is wasted in the lung

Right now, in fact, my sister-in-law is something more of a worry to me than my grandad. When a 31-year-old marathon runner contracts pneumonia, people understandably ask what the hell is going on, and as you’d expect never really work … Continue reading

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Going downhill isn’t the same as being rock bottom

My grandad – the old soldier – is getting noticeably more infirm. He’s 93, so arguably we should have foreseen it. But to see him outpacing his older daughter (my auntie has only recently had a hip op) you wouldn’t … Continue reading

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An over-examined life

… Even when I was sat there, watching that bird, I was thinking to myself: who should I tell about this? It struck me as very much like something out of a book. I don’t know if that’s piteous or … Continue reading

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Fortune favours the fumbler

While coming back on the ferry I was the sole witness to a minor miracle. My excessively short-sighted eyes have never got on well with photochromic lenses; besides, when I buy my expensive, extra-thin, extra-brittle, extra-fragile glasses – suitably powerful … Continue reading

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